i’ve always had the same dream for when i grow up. i want to live out in the open to where i can open my window & see wide open land. i want to wake up with the sun in my face and just stare out at the view. not a country type view but just a view of an open field and plenty of land that’s all mine. i want to have relaxing days and at night i want to be able to sit outside in the grass withh my girlfriend and look up at the stars until she falls asleep in my arms. that will forever be my dream for when i grow up :l

when you look at me, does it kill you ? do you miss my smile ? have you realised what you’ve lost yet ? do you wish for it back every night ? have you finally broken ? how does your heart feel ? broken, right ? well welcome to my world. enjoy your stay, because im leaving.

having second thoughts sucks ass but some things, you just have to deal with.